Why me?

Posted: September 10, 2014 in My Journey
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As I sat in the waiting room of the Victoria Breast Centre I had a gut feeling that the news I was about to receive wouldn’t be good news – call it gut instinct or women’s intuition but I was right. For months I had put off going to the doctors about a lump I found in my breast over 8 years ago. My partner told me on so many occasions to just get it looked at but deep down I knew something wasn’t right. As I walked into the consultants room the look on the doctors face said it all.

I had been to see the very same doctor two weeks previously for a core biopsy on a large lump in my right breast and a sample biopsy from my lymph nodes. For some reason I was hoping everything was going to be OK but it seemed it wasn’t.

“You have Breast Cancer” he said in a very clinical manner…… No bed side manner at all. Everything i planned to say to him totally left my mind and I just sat there sobbing my eyes out. The thought of not being here for my children was the only thing I could think of. How do I tell them? How do I tell my parents? And how the hell do I tell my partner? He has been my rock for the past five years I just knew this would effect us. Scared isn’t quite the word I’d use but I was petrified

My whole world just collapsed! There was no light at the end of the tunnel…… I just waned the ground to swallow me up and never spit me out again.

As I left the clinic I was in a state of shock…. I didn’t know what to do. All I could think of was “WHY ME” I knew why —- my lifestyle over the years wasn’t the best and the Cancer was a way of telling me my whole body is sick!

It was now time to bite the bullet and tell friends and family.

  1. My posts are as honest as I could be. There are moment where you’ll laugh and some where you may shed a tear but its REAL LIFE ……. It’s MY LIFE


  2. Lodlollie@googlemail.com says:

    Kel I’ve read all this with tears and smiles your a strong woman and we are all with you on this journey like it or not !!! ❤️ xx❤️


  3. Lodlollie@googlemail.com says:

    It’s VIKI sorry didn’t say xx


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